Saturday, July 30, 2011

A Room Full of Wanted

Last March I was blessed to spend a weekend with several Red Raider girls in the mountains of New Mexico. The time was completely sweet. There was something Marla said, though, that has stuck with me these last several months. She told of how sometimes she wakes up in the mornings to be mommy to her three little ones not feeling so joyful, or beautiful, or worthy. She went on to say how she would sing God's truths over herself because His truth was truth, whether she felt it or not.
That has stuck with me.

Last Thursday night, after a very busy, very trying week, I climbed into our big recliner and called the thirteen girls at our house in for a time of quiet before they began drinking their sodas and Red Bulls in order to stay up all night.

Honestly, I was so physically and emotionally exhausted from the first three days of the week, that I almost called the "girls' night" off. Oh, thank You God, that my selfishness didn't win out this time.

I asked the girls to share some things they believed about themselves.

"I'm ugly."

"I'm not worthy of friends who care."

On and on they went, spewing out these things that were lies from the enemy.

Then I had them speak Truth about themselves. It was difficult for them.

One precious girl, in a wad laying at the side of my chair began to weep. I knew what was going on in her life and reached over and held on to her leg and said, "You are wanted!"


By the Most High.

He doesn't ignore our calling out to Him. As a matter of fact, Psalm 116:2 says that He inclines His ear to hear us. He bends over to catch every whisper directed His way.

Be still my heart.

I looked around at the beauty in that room. The hearts that wanted to be wanted. To be chosen.

Help them get it Lord. Help them understand that only You can fill that God-sized hole that is yearning to be loved. To be beautiful and to be chosen. To be wanted.

Only You.

4 thoughts:

Brad said...

Hey Lady in a Shoe, as I read your blog post my heart leapt back to 1986-88, when I was one of those students that needed to hear Truth about me. I am so grateful that you were faithful to Father back then to speak Truth over me many times...and also my wife. We love you and so glad that another generation gets to hear Him through you...

Carol said...

Oh, Brad. Many times my heart has gone back to those years. Many times I have grieved over the fact that I didn't always show you guys the true picture of Jesus. I didn't always give you the best example. I'm grateful to Him that His hand was on you and my precious Rhonda. Every time I read one of your posts, my heart swells with pride over your lives lived for Him. Your faithfulness overwhelms me. Hug your bride for me. Know you are forever loved.

The Barnyards said...

I love you so so very much. My heart is always so FULL after reading your posts. So thankful for you in my life.

bebe bird beck said...

I love this and you so much. I'm so happy those girls have you. They'll remember you and thank God for you the rest of their lives.